urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo Sometimes we love that which we can never understand. Carolanne 2006-03-27T12:04:29Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:41343 2006-03-27T12:04:29Z 2006-03-27T12:04:29Z birthday wednesday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:41014 2006-03-12T15:54:35Z 2006-03-12T15:54:35Z carolanne will be 17 in 17 days, carolannes car will be registered in her name with her own insurance in 19 days and her credit card will be paid off within the week. i love life:) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:40287 2006-01-04T04:35:20Z 2006-01-04T04:35:20Z registered for the sat's today, looked at into all colleges that are an hour or less drive from my house. came to the conclusion that salem state would float my boat. its only like 7 grand a year i know its a lot but thats somewhat low. i can live at home cause its like 40 minutes away. i can try to have classes 3 days a week and hey during the winter i could even stay in a hotel near by if i dont wanna drive. i want to live at home thats my thing. they specialize in teaching!! it was started for the field of education so itll be good. i love life:) and my gpa is like 2.9 i know its not great but thats pretty good. if i keep up my grades this year and next i should have at least a 3.2 and thats pretty nice. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:40114 2006-01-01T19:27:57Z 2006-01-01T19:27:57Z 1. Weigh 135 pounds, and dont loose boobs. their nice.<br />2. Dont get speeding tickets, or any tickets<br />3. Go to the gym twice a week, at least once but try for twice<br />4. One way or another pay off my credit card<br />5. Save money, hopfully have 1000 by the end of the year but if the credit cards paid off and i have 2 bucks in my savings account. Id be happy<br />6. Party with Eri at least once a month<br />7. Get into a good college<br />8. Keep my grades at all B's. god im smart:)<br />9. Keep my frigen room clean<br />10. Read All the books on my shelf that I havent read yet.<br />****11. Dont crash Car.<br /><br />There, i only had 3 last year and i did one good. lost 30 pounds, kinda kept my room clean, and didnt save anymoney. so this year im going all frigen out8-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:39784 2005-11-11T19:38:24Z 2005-11-11T19:38:24Z semi friday and im kinda glad i got suspened from work this week, i dont have to stress about everything, i mean i wont have a check next week but i already paid my bills for the month. the semi is gonna be sooo great my table plus brad keith and kayla and amy are coming over after to have mucho fun, and come on with all three of the bovierst its gonna be a good time. and scott amanda alissa sam(who ive yet to meet, he'll be getting humped lol) cait rybrose! court and my matty, wow im like getting honry thinking about it. and thats crazy. okay time for me to go back to sleep i think im dieing lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:35766 2005-09-07T10:30:40Z 2005-09-07T10:30:40Z im kind of excited about school, maybe because i ahve work after and ill be in grocery:) but i dunno. if you know me expect to get a text message asking what lunch you have.. i hate sitting alone blah. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:34649 2005-09-01T03:39:45Z 2005-09-01T03:39:45Z hanging out with eri tomorrow8-) i also realized something today and im gonna put it, hopfully the person its for will know.<br /><br />even thought it was a massive cuntlike thing you did, i forgive you and to tell you the truth i was kind of imature for being so pissy about it i mean if your gonna loose a guy.. why not to a friend? and i know i say that now because it takes time to come out and say it because thats not how i felt at first.. and to tell you the truth.. he fucked us both over urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:32396 2005-08-12T14:17:58Z 2005-08-12T14:17:58Z C- Cabrera, Ryan<br />A- Avril Lavigne<br />R- Relient K<br />O- Omarion<br />L- Lennon, John<br />A- Abba<br />N- 'Nsync<br />N- Nalick, Anna<br />E- Early November<br /><br />L- Led Zeppelin<br />E- Everlive<br />E- Eminem<br /><br />D- Donovan<br />O- Orrico, Stacie<br />N- Natasha Bedingfield<br />O- O-Town<br />V- Valentine, Brooke<br />A- Amerie<br />N- Nelly urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:30474 2005-08-05T14:22:26Z 2005-08-05T14:22:26Z i need to go on vacation. i hardly ever do anythng fun, i never go away, and im always complaing. anyone wanna plan a vacation with me? go to bermuda or something for like a 4 day weekend sometime in october? ill find prices<br />US virgin islands- air and 4 nights hotel, carambola beach resort $563.. this ones better, its right on the beach..<br />Jamaica- air and 4 nights hotel, wyndham rose hall resort and country club $544<br />i seriously want to do this, sometime in october, thats like 2 and half months, seriously. we'll make a big party of it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:29687 2005-07-24T01:45:41Z 2005-07-24T01:45:41Z this makes no sence really. like i always find wrong guys, ill find one that just doesnt fit with me. but then i find this one or he finds me or he just shows up or i see him differently, however you word that to make it sound right, and im not myself, im semi shy carolanne who doesnt want to say something dumb. eh whatev im dumb, oh and after this deffinatly no more entrys for just people to look at, friends seriously only this time. sorry non live journal ppl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:29223 2005-07-17T21:27:35Z 2005-07-17T21:27:35Z anna nalick i relized today that most of my friends are boys.. eck.. coooties! while on the phone last night with mike, i had to recap every guy ive ever done anything with(he did it first i felt obligated).. hes so much more sluttier than me hehe:)... concert plans are off... going to the beach instead, me eri and my mom, we're leaving friday(29th) as soon as my padre comes home from chemo(like between 12-3) staying at the Best Western in seabrooke(most likely), beaching it up all day, sleeping over and beaching it up again satruday all day... its like a mini vacation. im glad:):) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:28753 2005-07-14T17:13:18Z 2005-07-14T17:13:18Z im board. i hate bitches.:) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:28656 2005-07-07T01:10:52Z 2005-07-07T01:10:52Z i have said clearly like 2billion times today, my mother offically wants me dead. i went to school today and learned more in 2 hours then i did in an entire school year. i went to market basket and hannaford to buy food. i am so board that i looked at a ton of myspaces, which led me to the conclusion that i deffiantly i have the best friend ever. we dont have fucked up names for each other, we dont get closer when we loose other friends, we dont act one way and say the other, and we deffiantly know how to have fun, and to tell you the absolute truth, i dont know what the fuck i would do without her because she knows me as well as i know myself, how many other fucking people can say that about their friends. i also came to the conclusion that i need my lisence, right now. i finally got the ipod attatcment for my car, hello good music. i also got a new bed spred, im thinking of using the old one in the back of my car, i have a little rip in the seat. im in desprate need to go to a party, cant wait for the weekend! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:27913 2005-06-14T13:56:11Z 2005-06-14T13:56:11Z ugh so board. laurens away so in creative essay its down to four, so moults brought us the writing lab and by the way this very much makes me happy for reason i cant exactly say right now for fear of someone seeing:-X. britt's here and she pu ta picture of nick on bugs bunnys body kind of.. i laughed lol. its stephs birthday, we pretty much celebrated all during health and boy did i learn some shit, i havnt decided if i should be a big moth or not yet, ill probally just shut up about it, if i was in the situation i wouldnt want people to know and hes fucked enough with the girlfriend and everything so yah.. i feel bad. now back to lauren, after the seniors were gone she was like the only good thing about class and now that shes gone im bored as hell, i dont ghave anything to do(side note- bjourn just walked in) vacation starts verrry soon!!!! i want everyone to come over tomorrow cause our only final is sort of in the morning. i cant wait for my dad to go to new jersy, hes pretty much a pain my frigen ass so yah.. party at casa de donovan.. and bitches need not apply.<br /><br />so sunday was danilles grad party, that was fun.. we had a sleep over and frank took us to wedny's and then to mcdonalds cause wendy's was out of frosties.. fuckers.. i could have killed that dude. well i dont feel like doing this anymore so yah.. peace out live journal:-p urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:27200 2005-06-02T01:43:54Z 2005-06-02T01:43:54Z THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:<br />1. Carolanne<br />2. Carawanne<br />3. Numb Nuts<br /><br />THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:<br />1. Carolanne320<br />2. ILOVBOOTIES<br />3. crazybaby89<br /><br />THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:<br />1. my legs<br />2. my chest area<br />3. my eyes(on days i wear blue)<br /><br />THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:<br />1. my stomach<br />2. my small ass<br />3. my toe nails<br /><br />THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:<br />1. irish<br />2. italian<br />3. french<br /> -russian also<br /><br />THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:<br />1. car alarms<br />2. dieing alone<br />3. car accidents<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:<br />1. washing my face<br />2. wakeing up on time<br />3. eating<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:<br />1. bath robe<br />2. pink fuzzy flip flops<br />3. 10 of my 12 earnings<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:<br />1. Ryan Cabrera<br />2. Sade<br />3. Tim Mcgraw<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS BY THE THREE ARTISTS:<br />1. On The Way Down<br />2. By Your Side<br />3. Live Like You Were Dieing<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:<br />1. To be needed<br />2. things in common<br />3. great sex.<br /><br />TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order, try and guess which is which in the comments):<br />1. my mother bought a new car today<br />2. i got my car fixed today<br />3. my car is yellow<br /><br />THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:<br />1. hands<br />2. eyes<br />3. height<br /><br />THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:<br />1. running<br />2. writing<br />3. being with my bitches,<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:<br />1. put my pj's on (too bad my self tanner isnt dry)<br />2. call amanda<br />3. finish my bio outline<br /><br />THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:<br />1. teaccher<br />2. car salesman<br />3. journalist<br /><br />THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:<br />1. any-<br />2. where<br />3. warm<br /><br />THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:<br />1. Daveigh<br />2. Wally<br />3. ..(Eri's baby name) Landon<br /><br />THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:<br />1. Go on a plane<br />2. be happy with myself<br />3. live to the fulliest<br /><br />THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:<br />1. i loove chicky flicks<br />2. i can take up to 3 hours to get ready, for special occasions<br />3. i think im fat<br /><br />THREE CELEB CRUSHES:<br />1. Chris Noth<br />2. Mikhail Baristakogh(sp?) I know hes old but...<br />3. Ryan Gosling<br /><br />THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:<br />1. Your<br />2. Mother<br />3. ;) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:26507 2005-05-15T13:41:40Z 2005-05-15T13:41:40Z iPod QUESTIONS<br /><br /><br />LAST PERSON <br /><br />[You Touched] Emily<br />[You Talked to] John<br />[You Instant messaged] Zach<br />[You Yelled At] Sara<br /><br />FAVORITE <br /><br />[Album] Ryan Cabrera- Take It All Away<br />[Shoes] Flippy Flops<br />[Candy] Heath Bar, Or The Things Amanda Gave Me From The Candy Store...<br />[Country] Gonna Have To Say France, Ireland's A Close Second<br />[TV Show] Sex & The City<br />[Movie] The Wedding Singer, Drop Dead Fred, The Ring.. And More<br />[Song] Dont Phunk With My Heart<br />[Vegetable] Zuchini(sp?)<br />[Fruit] Watermelon<br />[gender] Boysss:)<br /><br />Me <br /><br />[my name is] Carolanne Lee Donovan... The 1st:)<br />[sex] Girly=)<br />[age] 16<br />[dob] 3/29/89<br />[in the morning i am] A Pain In The Ass<br />[in the night i'm] Tired<br />[all i need is] Coffee, My Job, My Car, & Eri<br />[true love is] A Bitch<br />[my truest friend is] Eri<br />[im afraid of] Car Alarms & Dieing Alone<br />[i dream about]Lots Of Different Things<br /><br />WOULD YOU <br /><br />[die for your best friend?] DUH<br />[play a mean prank?] Depends<br />[change your personality because someone says your'e not cool?] Maybe My Outfit But Not My Whole Personality<br />[eat without a fork, knife? (etc)] Uh, Yah?<br />[join the school play?] If Its A Good One<br />[play on a football team?] That WOuld Be Silly<br />[tell someone a secret?] Yuppo<br />[kill someone] Not On Purpose<br /><br />DO YOU EVER <br /><br />[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] When Theres Nothing To Do<br />[save aol/aim conversations] Pieces Of Some<br />[wish you were a member of the opposite sex] Sometimes I Think Of How Much Easier It Would Be<br />[cried because of someone saying something to you] OH Yah.. Gotta Love It.<br /><br />HAVE YOU EVER <br /><br />[fallen for your best friend] A Few Friends But Never For Eri!<br />[been rejected and was your heart broken] Rejected But He Didnt Break It, It Just Had A Minor Sprain<br />[rejected someone] Sorta<br />[been cheated on] Oh Yah.<br />[done something you regret] Yah But If I Hadnt Done It, Some Good Stuff Wouldnt Have Happened So, Sorta No.<br /><br />DO YOU/ARE YOU /Yes or No<br /><br />[smoke] When Im Drunk<br />[obsessive] Sometimes<br />[could you live without the computer?] I Wouldnt Be Able To Charge My iPod=-o I Dunno:-\<br />[color your hair] BLonde Highlights & Red Inhancing Shampoo =Equal= Love.<br />[ever get off the computer] I Stay Signed On, But I Get Off.<br />[habla espanol] si, no bien pero:-\<br />[drink alchohol?] On Occasion<br />[like watching sunrises or sunset] Yah, When I Cant Sleep & Stuff<br />[Sing in the shower] Oh Yeah!<br />[Conceded] No<br /><br />#.....<br /><br />[of times I have had my heart broken?] Twice<br />[of hearts I have broken?] Dont Think Any<br />[of continents I have lived on?] Uno <br />[of good friends?] Eri, Amanda, Alissa, Court, Katie<br />[of True Friends?] Eri, Amanda, Alissa, Court, Katie<br />((If Those Had Been Asked A Month Ago, Id Have Different Answeres, Too Bad Huh!))<br />[of cd's that I own?] Many, Most Are Old Though.<br />[of scars on my body?] So Many, 58 I Think. Picking Bug Bites When I Was Little.. You Cant See Many Though Cause Im So Tanned! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:26244 2005-05-14T13:55:39Z 2005-05-14T13:55:39Z Dont Phunk With My Heart. 35 things about me.<br /><br />- I drive a lexus<br />- I dont have a lisence<br />- Im 16<br />- I have blue eyes<br />- my hair is naturally a carrot<br />- it got darker as i got older<br />- eri is my best friend<br />- I have 2 dogs<br />- I love my iPod<br />- Car Alarms scare me<br />- Being alone scares me<br />- I love to dance<br />- and swim<br />- and run<br />- Ive done 3 different drugs<br />- Im gonna stop for good.<br />- I hate Math<br />- I love english<br />- I clam-baked my car<br />- I owe my mother $550<br />- Ive had one boy-friend<br />- He dumped me on a day when we had on matching outfits.. not on purpose<br />- I've Liked 3 people since then.<br />- Mark, Ryan, & Nick.<br />- & With All Three I stopped when they either liked some1 else or fucked some1.<br />- I like to cuddle<br />- I like older guys<br />- Im going to miss Paul<br />- Im going to miss Sari<br />- I'll go visit them both.<br />- I dont like to fight<br />- I hate bitches<br />- I want to loose weight<br />- I miss the ways things were before.<br />- Im listening to the best song right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:25854 2005-05-10T18:27:39Z 2005-05-10T18:27:39Z <a href="http://www.lowellsun.com/front/ci_2725228">http://www.lowellsun.com/front/ci_2725228</a><br /><br />my grandparents. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:25349 2005-05-10T02:36:55Z 2005-05-10T02:36:55Z switch <p>Ive been doing friends only but I just want everyone to know.. </p> <p><font color="#3366ff">Blue </font>Mini I Pods EQUAL Love:-D Can Not Wait Till It Gets Here </p> <p>+ </p> <p><font color="#ff99ff">Lexus EQUALs Love- How I Love My Car </font></p> <p>&amp;</p> <p>Best Friends &amp; The Secrets We Keep <em>Baby</em>.!! <strong>ERRRII </strong></p> <p><font color="#ffcccc">It All Equals Love.. yay!</font></p> <p><strong></strong>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:24332 2005-05-03T18:40:20Z 2005-05-03T18:40:20Z <p><img src="www.evanlin.com/ blog/archives/000172.html"><u><strong>Friends Onlyyy</strong></u></p> <p><strong><u></u></strong>&nbsp;</p> <p>Dont Have A LiveJournal? Make One..You Can Be My Friiend:-)</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:23770 2005-05-03T01:30:11Z 2005-05-03T01:30:11Z Shes No You.. My New favorite song. why is it i cant write in my own journal without being critisised? I cant put my opoion in something that is mine. I think im done with the journal, at least this one anyway.. watch as soon as i put this some1's gonna read it and call me a pussy. well im done this is shit. let me leave you with a good one.<br /><br />"If I Cared What Every Bitch On The Street Thought About Me.. I'd Never Leave The House."<br /><br />Peace Out Fuckers.. Enjoy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:23529 2005-05-02T20:45:26Z 2005-05-02T20:45:26Z people say that this is only dragging on because im making it intoa big deal.. it is a big deal.. its a big FUCKING deal. I dont talk about it, other people say that i said shit and boof gets pissed and every1 bitches. and for the record.. i dont want to fight her.. ive known her too long, i may be mad but i have more respect for her than that. I also dont want to fight ashley or kareena, i am pissed that their getting into it, but when people talk their shit about me eri sticks up for me so i semi understand where they are coming from.. but people talking shit and shit like that happeneing are two very different things. but i give them props for being good friends to their friend. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:23187 2005-04-28T02:05:55Z 2005-04-28T02:05:55Z oxoGracefuloxo: pft... iono what your talking about, your not heartbroken and its clear to everyone that your not<br /><br /><br />isnt it funny that one of the reasons i didnt tell people i liked ryan is because i didnt want to hurt her? and its even funnier that SHES NOT MY FRIEND... so how the fuck would she know anything other than where my house is? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:22952 2005-04-27T02:25:53Z 2005-04-27T02:25:53Z shes no you okay. got alot of to get off my chest. everyone who doesnt know, i like ryan i have for a while. from september to now it was him and nick. now to get my chest clear...<br /><br />ive been looking for something good for a while and when i met ryan for the first time last year i thought he was hilarious and then he ended up being in 2 of my classes so i was happy, kinda started to like him in the end of september early october i guess. but he didnt really seem itnerested so i sorta gave up, in a way i kept him "on the side" in a weird way. then amanda and scott got together and i saw a lot of nick and well i thought things were going good but then i was told that when i liked nick in 8th grade erica gave him a handjob. so i kinda stopped trying the, plus later i find out he liked alissa so whatev. so for a while i kinda give up on the finding a b/f thing but still have ryan in the back of my mind because he's great. so we start talking a bit the beginning of marchish so i think hey this is good we chill, have some fun ya know. then over vacation after eri me koumie and mike eddy left the party in the woods i guess erin and him hoked up. she at first denyed it and told me they made out blah blah. erica lied to me about it. pretty much every1 lied to us about it and then we come to school monday and bam ryan of coruse tells every1 because fuck he got some. hes proud. and for every1 who is thinking why didnt you just fuck him.. i asked him to come home with me he said that him and mike had to wait at erica's for his mom. so they do their thing watever. i was told erica and mike watched and i dunno whats with erica and mike they made out but there was the tatoo kid and her profile says she loves mark so i dunno. and now today i try to "fix" erin and i and she goes and tells ppl at school that I HURT HER AND SHES THE VICTUM. okay yah getting fucked and chucked is a bitch but yah we were best frineds so I WAS HURT. and now I guess erica thinks im a hoe? okay yah im a big hoe. okay so bottom line.. just because i dont seem so hurt on the outside(dont you love my happy face?) I am in excrusiatiing amounts of it. it seems like the perfect guys are the ones i loose to my friends. hm what does this tell me? and ppl at school are saying i screamed that they fucked down the hall? no. if anyone did it was him.<br /><br />everytime i close my eyes or dont have something in front of me to do i can like amagine them together, and its likea movie and the next sceane is me sleeping, having no idea of whats going on. and i dont take pain well. i dont like to bring this up but when jake broke up with me, i had like an all liquid diet, i couldnt eat, i just kept thinking of him with otehr people, i had to always be busy, i went running at the track, he came and played football with andy, and now i go to the gym to avoid my pain and guess what.. ryan goes to the gym haha. just my luck. we both dont wanna be fat. too late for me. i always do this, everytime i get uspet i put myself down, i dont eat, i work out too much, i watch sad movies until late at night... last night i stayed up until 2:30, wrote in my regular journal about how pissed i was, then got even more psised and went outside and burned it and had a cigarette. I dont even know what to do. and right now.. sex and the citys on but i dont care, i dont even know why. and like i found the perfect dress for semi online and lik ei look at it and i think oh im too fat to wear that and oh i dont look good in pink and its not like any1 will even ask to go with me, ill probally go alone. the only good thing about the past week is surpirsingly my car breakng down, because now i get to clean it all the time and admire how pretty it is and because the battery is low or wateve, you cant go past like 30 so my mom lets me take it out alone, only in the neighborhood area but still.<br /><br />wow did i just complain alot. okay well now its done, everything is off my chest, including my bra;) haha trying to make a joke.. it really wasnt funny urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:carolanne_xo:22552 2005-04-26T20:34:04Z 2005-04-26T20:34:04Z subject says it all.